Please send me good, positive, strong vibes for this week. I will be moving out of "our house" into my very own apartment - alone. While most of me is excited and anticipating growth and happiness, a small part of me is still very much heartbroken and scared to death. I think once I'm through with the move, I'll be much better. I'm completely dreading having to enter the house, pack my belongings and say goodbye to the dogs. This week, it will be final. But on to happier topics...

Friday night was spent at Molly's Pub in Ralston with Christie and Alex (her boyfriend's roommate and a guy I met through an ex of all things!) Once we all got a few drinks in us, conversation really picked up. After closing the bar, we returned to DJ & Alex's where I watched a rousing game of playstation, began watching Rush Hour II, but fell asleep in Alex's bed quickly after it began. Upon waking, we brunched at IHOP, and, after a quick shower, I was off to Kansas City to visit cousin, Sharla. On the way down, I stopped briefly at a C-Mart in Mound City, Missouri, to visit the very place where I once spent a few horrifying hours at the hands of a psycho-drunk ex boyfriend, who ultimately ended up spending that night in jail. Maybe I'll disclose more on that later, who knows? (are we seeing some patterns here?) But the good news is I entered the place with a smile and left as I entered. I was actually laughing at the HORRID memory. Jeez!! Life does go on, you know. But moving forward... Upon my arrival to Countryside, Kansas, I sat with Shar in her basement with a bottle of white zin, of course, and disclosed my whole recent heartbreaking story. As I told her of the events of the past few weeks, I began to realize that things haven't really been that good for over a year. Isn't denial a strange, sneaky little creature? You know your mind can make any reality it chooses, right? But the goal for the future will be to sieze reality!!! I will surely blog more about this epiphany in the future when my wits are better and stronger. Anyway - we dined at PF Chang's with her husband, Jamie, and followed that up with a couple hours of drinking and socializing at a nearby sportsbar, I forgot its name (Jamie left us alone for this, bless his heart). All in all, a great weekend. Returned Sunday, wrapped up the weekend spending some time with family and on a couple VIP phone calls. Then I was fast asleep. Remember... send those vibes!!