I look almost as bad as I feel today. I'm hung over. Went with Jen and Nicole to The Zoo Bar last night to watch my cousin's band - "The Ten Cent Pistols" - who opened for "The Bastard Sons of Johnny Cash". Did I mention Loren is in this band? Well, I had a blast, but got sucked into the old high school drama wondering what's going on between the two of us. But, wisely, I've decided it doesn't really matter. He's Mr. Social but didn't spend a lot of time socializing with me. That was fine since I tend to be Ms. Social, myself. Was able to flirt a bit with the lead singer, who I have had a bit of a crush on for quite some time. I was so drunk by the end of the night that I made him drive me home, not realizing until I was actually home that he was then stuck there. Oh darn. He came on in, hung out with me for awhile. Ok, we did some fun stuff, but the details of that are for me to know and you to ponder. Amazingly enough, and, I think, a true sign of maturity, was the fact that we stopped things before they got too far, mostly, and I hate to admit this, because this was a friend of Lorens. Man, I was proud of us. But then I thought, "It's not like I'm Loren's girlfriend or anything!" (see what I mean about high school drama! Please!). But, after we sobered up a bit, I ended up driving him home and then stopped by Brian's (I knew he was having after-hours). Loren was there, seated on the couch surrounded by girls (none of them even close to being as cute as me, and all of them with huge asses - sorry - so I was ok with this). It comes with the territory of hanging with "rockstars", I guess. Saving grace was my conversation with Angel - the crazy dancing groupie. Don't remember what we talked about though. But after a half hour or so, I was ready for some sleep and said my goodbyes and headed home to crash. Loren left a cute message on my answering machine this morning, um, at 4 am. Why does this make me happy? Despite all the drama and the pathetic "oh, God, I'm single and too old for this" feelings, I had a good time and made it through the night throwing my expectations to the wind and feeling mighty good. I awoke this morning ok with all that happened and, especially, what didn't happen. Yea for me!