Well... I'm happy to report I'm over my depression. Although I will admit that these stages of grief, although graciously continuing to lessen in intensity, are still lingering. I remain in the stage of semi-despair where I find myself re-playing past aspects of the relationship and, yes, blaming myself for inflincting so much pain not only on the x, but on myself. I'm trying to forgive myself, but it really hurts sometimes. I'm aware, though, that I must let that pain happen in order for it to be completely removed. absorbing will lead to squeezing. The good news: it will pass and I'm anxiously looking forward to that day. And lucky me, I have many promising things waiting for me to get through it.