I keep forgetting..... That when I cease focusing on the here and now and revert to the past or future, I become miserable. I've been depressed for the past 24 hours or so and am desperately searching for the reason. I feel a deep longing for some sort of stability in my life. My mind keeps sending me flashbacks of the past year. These cause me nothing but heartbreak and grief. So to focus on the present would be to acknowledge how behind I am here at work and how completely miserable it looks out the window. All that grey makes me sad. I feel sick and have so much to do tonight. Luckily, I will be seeing Jan. Holy Moly, Mollie, and Good Grief, too!