I'm definitely in stage #4. Yuck!!!

Damn it! I broke down at lunch. Tried to hold it in, but it overwhelmed me. Guess I should have known it would be coming. Shit!

Had a little trouble being, and spent a little too much energy Friday trying to be "up". After a night of drinking downtown with Tammy and Tracey, came home exhausted and depressed. Barely made it through the night, but when I did, was proud. The "down" feelings continued throughout Saturday. Played Bunco for the first time in 2 months. Had to tell my story to the girls. Afterwards, had dinner with Charlie. That was nice and definitely helped. Sunday, spent 3 hours at Barnes & Nobel. Read an entire book while there on the 9 relationship personality types. I believe I am an emoter, people-pleaser with a dash of attention-seeker. Bought another $125 worth of books to get me through the many drinkless nights I plan on spending alone with my cat. Coo-koo, coo-koo.