Do you have any GOOD reason?

Introspection... Uh oh

Physically not feeling well still. And emotionally I'm below par as well. I can tell because 1) I'm not listening to music or singing, 2) I'm seeking solitude, and 3) I'm writing. I've fallen from the fence far into to introversion side.

What first comes to mind is the fact that people are really disappointing me lately. But being 38 years old I know that I should not expect anything from any one except the basic respect that every living creature deserves... Anything beyond that is a set up for a let down. What's bothering me, I guess is the general lack of intimate friendships that has evolved from the whole social media phenomenon. We seem to be focusing more on soliciting witty and encouraging comments on Facebook than seeking out valuable and meaningful personal relationships with those who mean the most.

Don't get me wrong, I think Facebook and other social media outlets are pretty cool and a great way to market and network, but it's getting out of hand and I'm just as guilty as anyone else.

So what to do? I must take responsibility for my own happiness. If these things bother me, I should minimize or remove them from my life. I guess I need a plan...

What I Want:
*peaceful days
*quality time with husband and kids
*time for creativity and writing
*a beautiful, organized, calming home
*meaningful interaction with others that does not involve self indulgence from either party

How will I do this?
*re-prioritize schedule

Tiny Deaths

Life's full of them. Each day brings a cause for grief be it the realization that a friendship may be over, saying goodbye to a beautiful day, realizing that amazing connection you made with a complete stranger was a once-in-a-lifetime experience, or mourning the memories of your babies as you awaken to the knowledge that they have grown into children... And even that is only temporary. So we must embrace the temporary moment and in this I have been failing miserably. I lay here in bed tonight, slightly sick and greatly disappointed in myself for missing too many things. I've said yes when I should have said no while saing no when I should have said yes.

Meditate on: priorities, husband, children